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Lack of meaningful rp, lack of online friends and conversations and real life have pretty much killed my internet addiction :/

My grandfather has stopped treatment, and is off of everything now.  It's only a matter of time.  Dammnit.  I can't even get out to see him one last time.

Also, the electric is out, and they'll have to tear the walls up to fix it.  The walls I remember my Grandfather putting up.  Everything seems to remind me of him, and I miss him already.  I just want my grandfather home and healthy and that won't happen.

My grandfather is in icu and on a breathing machine :(

I'm getting too stressed out, and am tired of trying to be perfect.  Also, I want to be treated like an adult! 

I can't keep this place kept up perfectly with two kids under two, and I'm supposed to be fully unpacked in just a few weeks?  Argh.

So, this morning, my eyeglasses snapped in half.  There is no way I can fix them, and we really can't afford another pair at the crazy prices the stores charge.  (I have a high prescription, so even online retailers charge me extra).

We can't pay rent, the baby is due any day, and there's no way we can afford to do anything for Christmas.  All of this because I can't work right now.

Also, Gigi has a cold or something and I hate when she's sick :(  I just want her to smile and laugh at me.

In good news?  It's finally cold outside which means I'm finally comfortable.  The summer/fall months were torture this year.

So Jim heard from the real estate agent, who told us to get preapproved first, then said that she wasn't sure about the condition of the house and that it might be hard to get a VA loan for.

That's not meant to be discouraging, is it?  Because it seems like it.

That's actually worse than someone just telling me what they're thinking.

I hate it, and I don't understand why people do that.  Not just a 'hi' and they forget to speak, but a willful ignoring.  It makes me want to flounce, or- I don't know.  People need to learn to move past things and if they do have a problem, TELL SOMEONE.